Woman’s Society Minutes, February 17, 2025

Present: Dorothy Curtis, President, Nancy Marstaller, Treasurer, Susan Gilbert, Secretary, Dorothy Hinshaw, Martha Sheldon, Kim Bolshaw.

Cards: For Friends.

Program and Devotions: We took turns reading the Blueprints article “Seeking a New Church Family”, by Lisa Lickel. Scripture Deuteronomy 31:6 “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Hymn: “In Christ Alone.”  Having downsized their lives upon retirement, Lisa and her husband moved to a quiet, rural location and looked for a new spiritual community. They found true welcome in the small local Quaker Meeting and began practicing Quaker worship  and values.

Minutes: Susan read the 1.20.2025 minutes.

Treasurer’s Report: Nancy sent $380. to Tedford. We have $100.58 in our account. We discussed organizations we usually give to, SASSAM, New Beginnings, and Wayfinder. We will begin by sending $50. to SASSAM this month.

Tedford Meal: Dorothy Curtis’s Team C will bring the March 3rd meal. Durham Friends provide dinner for Tedford House on the first Monday of each month. Contributions of prepared food or money for the Team to buy food for Tedford are always welcome.

Other Business: Martha knitted some beautiful hats to be sold at the Meeting House, with proceeds to benefit Woman’s Society causes. We will send this money to New Beginnings. Nancy would like to hold the April meeting at her home in Harpswell.

Nancy showed a photo of Velasco Friends with Mimi Marstaller,  Kristina Evans, and Maggie Fiori in attendance.

Dorothy ended the meeting with a quote from Abraham Lincoln:

“I cannot conceive how a man could look up into the heavens and say there is no God.”

Respectfully Submitted, Susan Gilbert

2024 Durham Friends Woman’s Society Treasurer’s Annual Report

“Worship in Cuba Yearly Meeting,” by Fritz Weiss

Message given at Durham Friends Meeting, February 23, 2024

Right now, as we meet here in Durham & Portland Maine, Quakers are gathered for worship in Gibara Cuba for the closing Sunday worship of Cuba Yearly Meeting.  With them are eleven Friends from New England, including Kristna Evans and Mimi Marstaller from Durham and Maggie Fiori from Portland, four adults and three children from Dover meeting and one from Providence meeting.

Friends began worship this morning earlier than we did, and will continue after we close. I am hoping to share,  as much as I am able, the experience of worship and of Friends in Cuba.

The church in Gibara is full – everyone has walked to worship this morning- from their homes or from the dormitories. It’s 80 degrees, the front door of the church is open, the breeze off the harbor blows through the windows.

The service begins with song – everyone knows the songs and everyone sings together enthusiastically.  Jesu’s band accompanies the hymns.  I saw a photo of the band earlier this week at Puerto Padre. This year there is a saxophone, a bass guitar, a drummer and Jesu.  

The theme for this years gathering is “a family on a mission” The Chorus is “We are the community of God”. Each year CYM composes a song for sessions. The Verse is Acts 2:42  (Pentacost)

“The Fellowship of the Believers

42 They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer.

After singing, a pastor will share a message on the theme and the verse: and the community will participate, sometimes interrupting, sometimes agreeing sometimes arguing.  As Friends everywhere know, Cuban Friends know that we experience god directly and intimately and that authority rests in that experience, not in the person of the pastor.  In Cuba, Friends share during a message, as well as out of the silence.

Judy Goldberger wrote in a recent newsletter from FUM that:

“[In Cuba} I was immersed in communities who KNEW and trusted the constant presence of G*d. Who used their minds and hands and hearts to their full capacity, but knew they were not acting alone, knew they didn’t carry the burden of outcomes.

I’m privileged [in the US]. My intellect knows G*d is by my side, but it’s so easy to fall into trusting the work of my hands, and taking on the burden of outcomes.  In Cuba, so much was out of our hands. The power could go out at any time. We might need to pull over and let the bus engine cool off. The pharmacy shelves were bare of western medicines. The doctors couldn’t run basic diagnostic tests.

But God was always with us, revealing Godself through each other, and giving Cuban Friends power. Not mastery, but power. As I return to the United States, where I’m privileged to be able to get what I want instantly, let me remember that. To confuse power with mastery  is the road to despair. Let us reveal Godself to each other, in our workplaces, in our communities, with power.

Above the cross, in the Friends church in Delicias, it reads, “The place of Your presence.” And it is also everywhere I walk.

[As Jorge Luis , clerk of CYM said} “Somos seres humanos, no somos angeles.” (We’re human beings, we’re not angels.)

Back in Boston after eight days with Cuban Quakers, I don’t even know where to begin. G*d was truly as close as our breathing and moved among and through us. I was witness to the deep joy and deep heartbreak that Cuban Friends live with every day. I miss them already and my heart is a little larger now.” —Judy Goldberger, New England Yearly Meeting

I hear in Judy’s reflection a meditation relevant to the verse that has been at the center of worship during sessions:  Acts 2:42, The Fellowship of the Believers

42 They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. (the passage continues)  43 Everyone was filled with awe at the many wonders and signs performed by the apostles. 44 All the believers were together and had everything in common. 45 They sold property and possessions to give to anyone who had need. 46 Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts.

This verse comes after the community has experienced the spirit descending upon them at Pentecost.  They have been drawn together, have spoken in many languages and understood each other, have been mocked by the community and have been formed into this fellowship of believers.  Judy’s description is a description of a community that has been formed into such a fellowship and that is gathering today praying and feasting together.

I’ve sat with the theme “a family on a mission”.  

One of the realities in Cuba now is that everyone has had people they love leave the island.  They cannot return and they cannot be visited.  Caring for family is complicated. The Cuba Friends are wrestling with how to remain in relationship with those they love who are absent. How to include them in the fellowship of believers.    –    

We in our country are living through a time where those we love are being targeted, because of their identity, their heritage or their job and it is unclear if we can protect them. My daughter works for USAID and she has been called a criminal, a lunatic and corrupt by rich and powerful men. How do we enfold those we love who are in harms way into the power of our fellowship of believers.  In Judy’s reflection she links both the deep joy and the deep heartbreak that Cuban Friends live with as part of their experience of God moving among them. That stretches me – Do I recognize the deep heartbreak that I live with as part of God moving through us?   This theme – “a family on a mission” has felt particularly tender both in the lives of Cuban Friends and in our communities.

After the message the children will lead the gathered community in song. There are a lot of children, singing and dancing enthusiastically.  The whole congregation is singing and dancing with the children.    The Epistle from CYM to Friends everywhere will be read, any new pastors will be installed and any retiring ministers or elders will be honored.  The clerk will offer a prayer at closing and the whole community will gather for a luncheon feast.  Local Friends will walk home, Friends from other meetings will crowd into whatever transport have been found to return home and the New England Friends will go to Holguin Airport and catch the 3:00 flight to Miami.

Revival Sing: ”When the world is sick, ain’t nobody feeling well, and at camp we’re so beautiful and strong.”

Queries:  What have we experienced as a community that has forged us into this fellowship of believers, who gather and pray together and break bread together?

Do we know the feeling of the power of God’s presence among us, how do we recognize this and not mistake mastery of our hands and the authority of the world for the power of God’s presence?

Click this link to play the audio: https://drive.google.com/file/d/1mgpAGV5ZATNrBAnjx3ZthbgFdXOL9YKY/view?usp=sharing

Woman’s Society Meeting Minutes January 20, 2025

Durham Friends Meeting House 

Present: Dorothy Curtis, President, Nancy Marstaller, Treasurer, Susan Gilbert, Secretary, Kim Bolshaw.

Cards: For Friends

Program and Devotions: We took turns reading the Blueprints article by Jill Jay, “God Speaks, Do I Listen? Philippians 4; 6-7 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. A single mother of 3, Jill had a deep commitment to help young children with learning. Through many challenges,  she continued her own education, and learned ways to make a great difference in children’s education. Looking back, she observed her own growth in learning to listen and trust what God had to tell her.

Minutes: Susan read the 12.16.2024 minutes.

Treasurer’s Report: Nancy said we have $535.58 in our account. $430. was raised from the silent auction, and will be sent to Tedford Housing.

Tedford Meal: Nancy’s team B provided ham,  mac and cheese, milk, fruit and dessert. The February 3rd meal, brought by Sarah Sprogell’s Team C, will include both meat and vegetarian chili, cole slaw and corn chips. Durham Friends provide a meal for Tedford House on the first Monday of each month. Contributions of prepared food or money for the Team to buy food for Tedford are always welcome.

Other Business: There will be a meeting of the Northeast Regional USFWI on February 22 at 9 AM. A Zoom link will be provided by Marion Baker. There will be three speakers. The theme is how to help younger people in their ministry. The organization needs a treasurer.

Dorothy ended the meeting with a quote from Elvis Presley: “Values are like fingerprints, nobody’s are the same but you leave ‘em all over everything you do.”

Respectfully Submitted, Susan Gilbert

Maker Session and Cafe, Thursday, March 20, 5:30 to 8:30 pm

ABOUT the Maker Cafe at Durham Friends Meeting

Thursday, March 20, 2025: Make a Hand Broom with Ezra Smith (please pre-register)

5:30-6:30 Learn How to Make a Hand Broom with Ezra Smith

  • Advance sign up required. Space is limited to 12, then we start a waiting list. Email Craig@Freshley.com to reserve your spot.
  • All supplies provided. $10-$20 donation is collected on site.
  • Ezra is a woodworking teacher at Maine Coast Waldorf School.

6:30-8:30 Maker Cafe with Live Music by Fanning the Breeze

  • Free and open to the public. No sign up required.
  • Bring a project to work on. Some knitting, stitching, writing, reading, drawing, coloring, carving, or whatever you want. And if you don’t bring a project that’s okay too.
  • Fanning the Breeze is Michael Fenderson and Bobbi Goodwin. They are two teachers who love sing-alongs and anything that pulls community together for good work and fun!  They were recently spotted at the annual Thompson’s Ice cutting day in South Bristol.

5:30-6:30 Make a Hand Broom with Ezra Smith

All supplies provided (donation collected on site).

Advance sign up required. Email Craig@Freshley.com to reserve your spot.

6:30-8:30 Maker Cafe

Live Music Fanning the Breeze

Hot drinks, snacks, and light supper available. All ages, genders, and beliefs welcome. No Charge for thr Maker Cafe, donations welcome

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Please bring a project of your own to work on. Some knitting? Mending? Painting? Sculpting? Crafting? Carving? And if you don’t bring a project, that’s okay too.

Please don’t bring your phone or other screen-based devices. This is an offline place where we try to connect with

Durham Friends Meeting Minutes, February 16, 2024

Durham Monthly Meeting of Friends met for the conduct of business on Sunday, February 16, 2025, with 15 people in attendance by Zoom.

1.     Meeting Opening:

              Clerk opened the meeting with a prayer by Howard Thurman.

Open unto me — light for my darkness

Open unto me — courage for my fear.

Open unto me — hope for my despair.

Open unto me — joy for my sorrow.

Open unto me — strength for my weakness.

Open unto me — wisdom for my confusion.

Open unto me — forgiveness for my sins.

Open unto me — tenderness for my toughness.

Open unto me — love for my hates.

Open unto me — Thy Self for my self.

Lord, Lord, open unto me! Amen.

2.     Approval of Minutes of January 2025  – Ellen Bennett

                        Meeting approved the January minutes.

3.     Ministry and Counsel — Renee Cote

After positive responses to retreat, the M&C proposes holding another retreat in September. This will be discussed again at a future meeting.

Brown Lethem is asking to transfer his Meeting membership to Claremont.

It was proposed that April’s monthly meeting for business be moved from the 20th, which is Easter, to the 27th.

                        Meeting approved moving the date of meeting for business.

4.     $2000 Gift allocation — Nancy Marstaller

The Meeting received a $2,000 gift from Rachel Kerry.  She expressed a desire that the money support people who are affected by the ways in which our government is no longer funding organizations, e.g., immigrants and refugees, LGBTQ+, Women’s shelters, etc. The money may be given to more than one organization.The suggestion was made that a portion of the funds go to domestic violence survivors. Several people spoke in support of giving to MEIRS today, the need being immediate. Clerk proposed giving $1,000 to MEIRS today, and return next month to discuss allocation of the remainder.

                Meeting approved this proposal.

5.     Trustees Report — Sarah Sprogell

Please see attached report. Gratitude was expressed for the ongoing work of Trustees.

6.     Peace and Social Concerns — Ingrid Chalufour

      Please see attached report. Note that while the mission of the committee is unchanged, the focus of the committee has shifted some of its attention to participating in the Portage Mapping Project in Brunswick.

      The fourth Sunday book group that started last month is continuing and is a benefit to the meeting. Please notes that this is an activity that could be overseen by any group or committee.

The Social Justice Book project may be affected by the decrease in funding from the US Department of Education.

7.     Finance Annual Report — Doug Bennett

Please see attached report. There are four points to keep in mind regarding Meeting finances:

  1. We are very good at budgeting. We spend what we say we’re going to.
  2. We make other expenditures, as well as receive income that are “off budget” e.g., spend money from the capital account, charity account, from the Sister City account, etc. We should try to come up with a framework for these expenses.
  3. Weekly contributions counted towards our operating revenue are down significantly. 73% of income came from weekly contributions and automatic deposits in 2018. That is down to 48% this year, a decline of 26%. Making up for this, not quite half of our income is coming from our investments.
  4. The total financial value of our Meeting is about $950,000. 
  5. Cemeteries, which are budgeted and managed separately, are also in good financial shape.

Suggestion was made that the Meeting articulate to all the importance of weekly contributions. Start passing the plate again!

8.     Makers Cafe update — Ellen Bennett. Craig Freshley

Good session last month with Nancy Marstaller, and excited about this upcoming session with Emily Bell-Hoerth.  We welcome ideas!  It’s all about building community. And we are all grateful.

9.     Other business

An observation: Recently we’ve had visitors to the Meeting who are interested in finding out more about Durham Friends. Things are “bubbling” around us.

For discussion at the next meeting for business, Meeting member Joyce Gibson offered the following:

1. She now has time to be more engaged in the meeting, 2. is missing adult Christian education, 3.  and is interested in documenting who we are as a Meeting and our Quaker history. She is asking M&C to think about how we might approach furthering our education about who we are as Quakers and would like others to work with.

Clerk ask that we close with prayers of gratitude and hope, and reread the Howard Thurman prayer.

Respectfully submitted, Ellen Bennett, Recording Clerk

Reports and Other Materials

Agenda and Materials for February 16, 2025 DFM Business Meeting

The Agenda and materials for the February 16, 2025 Durham Friends business meeting are HERE.

Agenda for February 16, 2025 Durham Friends Monthly Meeting

1. Decide if we want to continue to meet today or postpone until next week (considering if people have power and any are able to join by zoom) – Clerk, Nancy Marstaller

2. Approve January 19, 2025 business meeting minutes

3. Ministry & Counsel report- Tess Hartford or Renee Cote: action item, move monthly meeting in April to the 27th, as the 20th is Easter

4. Nancy Marstaller- $2000 has been gifted to the Meeting specifically to use for people in this area who are struggling or may struggle due to our government’s policy changes, especially for work with immigrants and refugees, LGBTQ people, or those who’ve suffered domestic and/or sexual abuse. Several people have suggested the Maine Immigrant & Refugee Services, as they have lost federal funding. We do not have to give all to one group. Looking for suggestions and possible action.

5. Trustees Annual report- Sarah Sprogell, no action item

6. Peace & Social Concerns annual report- Ingrid Chalufour, no action item

7. Finance Annual report- Doug Bennett, no action item

8. Makers Café update- Ellen Bennett

Maker Session and Cafe, Thursday, February 20, 5:30 to 9:00 pm

ABOUT the Maker Cafe at Durham Friends Meeting

Thursday, February 20, 2025:

**Mend Clothes with Emily Bell-Hoerth

**Live Music by Craig Freshley and Frederik Schuele

5:30-7:00 Learn How to Make a Shashiko Embroidered Patch with Emily Bell-Hoerth

All supplies provided ($7-$14 donation collected on site). Bring your clothes to mend! And sewing tools you may have. Mending helpers will be on site to assist with all mending projects.

Advance sign up required. Email Craig@Freshley.com to reserve your spot.

6:30-9:00 Maker Cafe

Live Music by Craig Freshley and Frederik Schuele

Hot drinks, snacks, and light supper available. All ages, genders, and beliefs welcome. No Charge for thr Maker Cafe, donations welcome

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Please bring a project of your own to work on. Some knitting? Mending? Painting? Sculpting? Crafting? Carving? And if you don’t bring a project, that’s okay too.

Please don’t bring your phone or other screen-based devices. This is an offline place where we try to connect with what we’re doing and who we’re with.

USFWI Northeast Region Zoom Gathering, February 22, 9:30 to Noon

Celebrate the vital & varied ministries of younger Quaker women!

Winter Zoom Gathering of United Society of Friends Women International—Northeast Region

22nd of February, 2025, 9:30am to 12 noon Eastern Time

Join us for a panel of younger Quaker women with ministries,as we explore

“Lifting Up Younger Quaker Women as They Live Into Their Sense of Call”

A Panel Moderated by Emily Provance of NYYM, with:

• Briana Hallowell from New England YM,

• Nicole Bennett Fite from New York YM, and

• Sussie Ingosi Ndanyi from Nairobi YM.

     They will share the ways they have felt led by the Spirit todo an amazing variety of ministries, how they experienced their call, how they were supported to follow their leading, and ways older Friends can help lift up younger Quaker women.

Schedule: (all times EST)

 9:30am ​Zoom opens for informal sharing/greetings

 9:40am​ Devotions led by Pastor Janice Ninan of NYYM and translated into Swahili by Pastor Joyce Machaha of Nairobi YM

10:00am ​Introductions led by Marian Baker-NEYM

10:05am ​Panel – moderated by Emily Provance-NYYM

11:05am ​Small breakout groups sharing what arose during the panel

11:40am ​Singing in multiple languages led by Congolese Women

11:50am​ Announcements and closing prayer

12noon ​End of event

For ?’s Marian Baker

Durham Friends Retreat, Saturday February 8, 9a.m.

Please join us for a Meeting-wide retreat, open to all, on Saturday, February 8th beginning at 9 a.m. and ending no later than 3 p.m.

With worship, small group discussion and artistic expression, we will examine how to prioritize the work and good functioning of the Meeting given our current numbers, and reaffirm our commitment to one another as a Meeting and as Friends. And have fun in the process!!

Lunch will be provided.

It is a great opportunity to listen and learn together and to connect with our beloved community. If you can only come for part of the day, just come!! We welcome you!

Please let us know if you will attend by emailing durham@neym.org. Everyone is needed!

Falmouth Quarterly Meeting Report, January 25, 2025

Report from Quarter, 1-25-25 Gathering

On January 25, 2025, Friends from Brunswick, Durham and Portland and one visitor gathered in person at Portland Friends Meeting and on zoom.

Those present shared news of and celebrated our community as meetings and as the community Friends in Southern Maine. We gathered with bagels, coffee and tea, and had lunch together.

The bulk of the morning was an exploration of what is required of us in these times. The facilitators noted that three themes informed the planning of the morning activity. These were  i.) that all of us are impacted by what is happening in our country, ii.) that we need each other – that we are stronger together, and iii.) that in considering what is required of us, the language from Micah 6:8 “[What is required is] to do justice, love mercy and walk humbly with God” is more relevant than language of “callings” or “leadings”.

There were moments of discomfort as we named our economic class which is one variable which impacts how we are affected, and moments of celebration as we recognized all the ways we are already doing service. We concluded with an exercise of finding our path by gathering into four groups drawn from an article by Daniel Hunter which had been shared in advance. The groups were “Protecting People”, “Defending Civic Institutions”, “Disrupt and Disobey.”, and “Building Alternatives”.

The full article can be read here: link

Before Lunch Andy Granell shared that in his work for a book about the history of Quakers in Maine he had been reading the collected archives of Falmouth Quarter.  There is an almost complete record of the quarter since it’s inception in the 1700’s.

After lunch we regathered to participate in a facilitated Visioning Session to provide our input on the future planning of NEYM Annual Sessions. The invitation was to engage in a conversation about how our Yearly Meeting’s practice of corporate discernment, our relationships with other Quakers, and our use of limited resources can most meaningfully contribute to the spiritual thriving of Friends across New England.”

Using materials provided by the NEYM Sessions Visioning Group and facilitated  by Leslie Manning of Durham, a former clerk of the Sessions Committee, and Marian Dalton, Brunswick, the current Yearly Meeting treasurer, those present shared their experiences of sessions, and their hopes and desires going forward.  Notes were taken and will be shared with the quarter separately.  The notes will also be sent to the NEYM staff to incorporate into their work.

A theme that was present throughout the day was that these times are unprecedented and challenging and will require a deeply faithful response individually and corporately.

Fritz Weiss, Wendy Schlotterbeck, Mimi Marstaller and Leslie Manning

Durham Friends Meeting Minutes, January 19, 2025

Durham Monthly Meeting of Friends met for the conduct of business on Sunday, January 19, 2025, with  eleven  people in attendance at the Meetinghouse and three by Zoom.

1.     Meeting Opening:

Clerk Nancy Marstaller opened the meeting with a reading by Thomas Kelly.
And the third step in holy obedience, or cousel, is this: If you slip and stumble
and forget God for an hour, and assert your old proud self, and rely upon your own
clever wisdom, don’t spend too much time in anguised regrets and self-accusations,
but begin again, just where you are.
Yet a fourth consideration in holy obedience is this: Don’t grit your teeth
and clench your fists and say, “I will! I will!” Relax. Take hands off. Submit
yourself to God. Learn to live in the passive voice — a hard saying for modern
man — and let life be willed through you. For “I will” spells not obedience.

2.     Approval of Minutes of December 2024  – Ellen Bennett

                        Meeting approved the December minutes.

3.     Rotation of Clerks

        Clerk reviewed the rotation of Clerks through 2025.

              Nancy Marstaller: January, February, March                                                                 

              Sarah Sprogell: April, May, June

              Tess Hartford/Renee Cote: July, August, September

              Ingrid Chalufour: October, November, December

4.     Nominating Report — Wendy Schlotterbeck

Regarding term limits, for this year, people will be asked if they would like to continue their committee work through 2025. Going forward, three-year terms will resume with people being asked at the end of each term if they would be willing to continue. This is an issue that will be  talked about at the retreat to be held February 8th.

Additional retreat topics will include the number of standing committees, Meeting priorities, and how we can best continue our work and meet our needs without overtaxing people.

The full list of position and committee responsibilities within the Meeting was read. Please see attached.

      Meeting approved the list of Meeting members, committee assignments, and responsibilities for 2025.

      Meeting approved the addition of Martha Hinshaw-Sheldon as member of the nominating committee.

Note: If anyone has suggestions about the upcoming retreat, please contact Renee, Tess or Leslie. Further information about the retreat will be added to the Meeting website.

5.     Clerks Group Meeting Care Coordinator Recommendation.

As approved at the December Meeting for Business, the clerks’ group met and agreed to bring forward the recommendation that the position of Meeting Care Coordinator continue through 2025.

             Meeting approved the clerks recommendation, with gratitude.

6.     Ministry and Counsel — Tess Hartford

      The position of Meeting Care Coordinator (MCC) was reviewed.

      The MCC Oversight Committee consists of representatives from M&C, the Communication Committee, and Peace and Social Concerns: Renee Cote, Doug Bennett, and Ingrid Chalufour.

      The MCC Care and Accountability Committee consists of Linda Muller, Martha Hinshaw Sheldon, and Joyce Gibson.

      Meeting approved a process reviewing and approving the MCC position at the December meeting — first to have M&C review and recommend the continuation of the position itself, and second to have the Oversight Committee recommend an individual to take on the MCC responsibilities.

          Meeting approved the proposal for M&C make its recommendation no later than November.

          Meeting approved the proposal for the Oversight Committee to make its recommendation no later than November.

Meeting approved Leslie Manning continue as MCC for 2025

The ability of Meeting attendees to hear what is being said was discussed. The recommendation was made to start with a podium microphone to see if it is adequate to address the issue of being heard, both in the meeting-room as well as on Zoom. It was also noted that speakers need to be reminded to speak within the circle outlined on the floor, not down or into a book, and to project. It was agreed to test a podium mike at the 1/27 meeting, which while unprogrammed, may give us a sense of the usefulness of a microphone.

7.     Makers Group Report — Doug Bennett

Mission of Makers Group was discussed, reinforcing its goal of outreach to the wider community, providing a screen-free place to interact and enjoy broadening our community of friends.

8.     Peace and Social Concerns — Ingrid Chalufour

Ingrid read the report.Please see report.

9.     Trustees — Sarah Sprogell

Please see report. Clerks recommended giving prior approval to Trustees to give the piano to another person if so asked.

                Meeting approved this recommendation

        Sarah Sprogell remains the contact for cemetery issues.

10.   Finance Committee — Nancy Marstaller

There was no monthly report. The annual report for 2024 will be brought to the February Meeting.

Respectfully submitted, Ellen Bennett, Recording Clerk

Attachments HERE

Woman’s Society Meeting Minutes, December 16, 2024

Friends gathered at Dorothy Curtis’ Home for the Annual December Meeting and Christmas Party.  

Present: Dorothy Curtis, President, Nancy Marstaller, Kim Bolshaw, Linda Muller, Wendy Schlotterbeck, Krisna Evans, Theresa Oleksiw. On Zoom: Susan Gilbert, Secretary.

Cards: Kim will send cards to Friends.

Program and Devotions: Dorothy read a children’s book to us, “Why Christmas Trees Aren’t Perfect” by Richard H. Schneider. Set in the Carpathian Mountains, the author gave human traits to evergreen trees. In beautiful perfection, each tree desired to be cut and placed in the castle for the Queen. One little tree sacrificed its’ beauty and stretched branches to hide a rabbit from wild dogs, gave a wren cover in a storm, and was food for a starving fawn. In this process, the tree’s form became irregular. The Queen, at first critical, acknowledged that living for others made one beautiful in the eyes of God, and chose the little pine for her Christmas tree.

Minutes: Susan read the 11.18.’24 minutes written by Nancy Marstaller. 

Treasurer’s Report: Nancy paid $60. in dues to the Northeast America region of USFWI.  Our account has $180.58. The $80. proceeds from our silent auction will be given to Tedford Housing. 

Tedford Meal: Team A, lead by Kim Bolshaw, brought rotisseried chicken, carrots with ranch dressing and ice cream. January’s dinner will be made by Team B, led by Nancy Marstaller. Durham Friends provide a meal on the first Monday of each month. Contributions of food or money to buy food for the meal are always welcome.

Other Business: Linda Muller reported that the mitten tree yielded 4 hats, 30 pairs of mittens, I scarf, 1 pair of gloves and 1 pair of socks. This was delivered on 12.21for the 12.22 annual Wabanaki solstice gathering as gifts for their youth group. Nancy would like to host another meeting at her home, in March or April. We discussed how the WS could contribute to the Maker’s Night.

Dorothy ended the meeting with a reading from Phillipians 44:

 Rejoice in the Lord always, and again I say, rejoice.

After the meeting, names were drawn for our gift exchange, and cookies and tea were enjoyed amid conversation and laughter.

Respectfully Submitted, Susan Gilbert

Agenda and Materials for January 19, 2025 Business Meeting

The agenda and materials for the January 19, 2025 Durham Friends Business Meeting are HERE.

Jan. 19, 2025 MM Agenda     

Approve last month’s minutes (December 15, 2024)

Approve rotation of clerks

Nominating report

Retreat update

Clerks group recommendation re continuing MCC position this year

Ministry and Counsel

Makers Café group report

Peace and social concerns

Trustees

Finance

“It Is a Gift, And It Is a Choice We Make,” by Doug Bennett

Message given at Durham Friends Meeting, January 12, 2025

Christmas is mostly behind us, now.  I had a lovely Christmas, and I hope you did, too.  And because Christmas is a time of giving and receiving gifts, I’ve been thinking about gifts. 

It started with thinking about the three Kings.  This past Monday was the day they finally arrived to present their gifts to the baby Jesus — or at least that’s the day we celebrate their arrival.  A few days later, I imagine, the Magi are still making their way home – and going there by a longer route to avoiding telling King Herod about the location of the Messiah – having been warned in a dream. 

And I’ve been thinking about The Other Wise Man, a fictional character Henry VanDyke dreamed up in 1895.  VanDyke imagined a Fourth Wise Man who sets out to join the three others.  This one – his name is Artaban – carries a sapphire, a ruby and a pearl to give to the Messiah.  Time after time his journey is interrupted by some person in need.  And to help them, he gives away his gems, one after another.  He doesn’t catch up with Jesus until he himself is impoverished, and it is years later.  It turns out he encounters Jesus, finally, only at the Crucifixion.  And he hears a voice say, “Verily I say unto thee, Inasmuch as thou hast done it unto the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.” [Matthew 25:40]  This Fourth Wise Man realizes his gifts have been received and accepted.  Artaban never gave the gems to Jesus, but they were appreciated all the more.  That story was a favorite of my father.  He read it to my sisters and I each Christmas. 

So I’ve been thinking about gifts.  Yes, about gifts like gold, frankincense and myrrh, and, yes, about gifts like sapphires, rubies and pearls. 

But much more than that, however, I’ve been thinking about what is a gift, and about what it means to us to give and to receive gifts. 

That journey of the Three Kings was two millennia ago.  Here in Maine, in the present… 

“Present:”  that word means “now” but it also means “a gift.  Now isn’t that interesting?  It isn’t a trick or a coincidence.  Both meanings of “present” have the same original Latin root.   Do we use the word both ways because our ‘now’ is a ‘present’?  a gift?  I think so.  That’s what’s really on my mind this morning:  the present, the here and now, as a gift.  But like the Three Kings, I want to take a longer road to that recognition. 

As I was saying, here in Maine, in the present, the days are again getting longer.  There’s more daylight early in the morning and more again later in the afternoon.  In a few months, warmer weather will return.

You know the basic deal.  This planet earth on which we live rotates on an axis.  One full rotation makes a day.  The axis is canted a little to one side.  The northern half of the planet is currently tilted away from the sun.  That’s why we have shorter and colder days now.  The earth revolves around a medium-size star, the sun.  One full revolution makes a year.  Our planet (and several others) and our sun are part of a much larger collection of stars and planets and other celestial stuff that make up the Milky Way Galaxy.  There are billions of stars in our galaxy, and that galaxy is one of billions (maybe trillions) in the universe.  All the galaxies are moving outward, rapidly, from some ancient center point when and where there was a Big Bang billions of years ago.  Mostly this world where we are is just a lot of rocks and dust in motion, isn’t it?

Still, our planet has life on it, lots of life, including human life.  Probably, there is life on other plants in the universe. But only on a tiny percentage of them.  That human life on our planet is full of all manner of things: politics and science, gossip and exercise, work and goofing off, eating and sleeping.  Courage and wickedness.  All of these and more.  Because of life, it’s a more complicated, more interesting, more puzzling, world. 

What do we make of this world, this galaxy, this universe we live in, with all that it contains, bad and good?  For many people – if they think of it at all – it’s just how things are.  It’s neutral.  It just is.  It’s odorless, tasteless – meaningless.  Sometimes the ways things are delights us; sometimes the way things are troubles us.  Most of the time, the ways things are doesn’t much catch our attention.  It’s just there. 

We may think of all-there-is in this neutral, just-there sort of way, but we don’t have to.  There’s a choice here.  We can also see the way things are (however they are) as a gift.  And gifts are special, don’t you think?  Gifts surprise us.  They delight us.  And they connect us better to one another. Gift-giver to gift-receiver. 

Every morning I wake up; every morning you wake up, and there is the world laid out in front of us.  The world in all its splendor and beauty.  Also, of course, the world with all its problems and troubles.  It isn’t all frankincense and rubies.  When we wake, tomorrow morning, how will we receive that world out there before us?  Will we see it as just-what-is?  Or will we see it, the present, as a gift?

It’s a choice, and a very important one I’m thinking. 

A German mystic once said, “the wondrous thing is not how the world is, it is that the world is.”

Every day, in every way I’m surrounded by people who greet the world each morning in that ‘just-there’, neutral kind of way.  It’s very easy – it’s a temptation, I think – to join them in looking at the world this way, this world with its joys and splendors, its brutality and its troubles, its selfishness and its generosity.  The common way is to see it as a just-there world. 

My New Year’s Resolution this year is to awaken each day to the present, to the gift that is the present.  I don’t want to take it for granted.  This world isn’t anything I’ve earned; it’s nothing I deserve.  This world, this being-here, is a most astonishing gift I can imagine. Even when it’s ugly or painful.  I want to live in that present, in the realization of that gift. 

I learned to write thank-you notes when I was a child.  Probably you did, too.  My parents (especially my Mother) made sure my sisters and I wrote thank you notes for each of the gifts we received at Christmas.  I now see the importance of that.

But this present, this world-before-us, is a gift from who?  Who do I thank?  Well, God, of course.  To see the present as a gift is to open the door to recognizing Creation and a Creator.  To receive this gift is to open the door to seeing the world, the present, the all-there-is, as something special, something sacred.  It’s to open the door to being religious. 

It’s a choice to see it that way.  Today it may be an unusual choice, but it is a crucial one. 

And what do we give in return?  Gift-giving is mutual.  You give to me; I give to you.  If God has given us the gift of the present, the gift of the sacred present, what do we give in return?  I don’t think we can improve much on the final stanza of Christina Rossetti’s Christmas Carol, which we sang recently as “In the Bleak Midwinter.” 

What can I give Him,
  Poor as I am? —
If I were a Shepherd
  I would bring a lamb;
If I were a Wise Man
  I would do my part, —
Yet what I can I give Him, —
  I can give my heart.

                                                Christina Rossetti, A Christmas Carol, 1872

It’s a choice how we see this world: ‘just-there’ or ‘a gift’.  Is this world just ‘stuff’, just ‘this and that’, just rocks and dust and living things?  Or is this world ‘a gift’ – with possibilities and meanings and obligations? Is this world a secular place, or a sacred place, a holy land through and through? 

This gift of life, this gift of the present is the most important gift we receive, and we receive it  every day.  This gift colors everything.  Let us be reverent and thankful.  Let us give our hearts. 

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Request for Contributions of Medicines and Other Health Products for Cuban Friends

Mimi Marstaller and Kristna Evans will soon be traveling to Cuba as part of a larger NEYM group to visit Cuban Friends including members of our sister Meeting there. 

They will be taking some medicines and other health products with them because these are difficult/impossible to purchase in Cuba.  Below is a list of the items they have been asked to bring with them.  If you would like to contribute such items, please bring them to the Meetinghouse by February 1.

Thank you.

Acetaminophen, adult

Acetaminophen, children

Paracetamol

Ibuprofen

Aleve (naproxen sodium)

Vitamins for women

Vitamins for men

Vitamins for children

Allergy relief (loratadine)

Omega 3

Vitamin C tablets

Nystatin vaginal tablets

Antidiarrheal (Imodium)

Antacids for heartburn

Triple antibiotic creams

Anti-itch cream (cortisone)

Clotrimazole antifungal cream

Zinc oxide antifungal cream

Muscle relaxant tablets

Muscle relaxing creams

Menthol cream

Mouthwash tablets

Toothbrushes

Anti-dandruff product

Ace bandages

Joint compression support

Blood pressure sleeve

Reading glasses

Amoxicillin

Asthma inhalers

About the Maker Sessions and Maker Café

Each month, we are holding Maker Sessions and Maker Cafes at our Durham Friends Meetinghouse, generally on the the 4th Thursday of each Month. Each such event is publicized on the DurhamFriendsMeeting.org website and also on the MakerCafe.org website.

Here at Durham Friends Quaker Meeting, we’re trying to provide a welcoming, offline place for folks to hang out, learn, and connect. We want to share our Meetinghouse with a wider community. We want to help neighbors meet neighbors and help people learn how to make things, together.

A US public health advisory was published in 2023 called Our Epidemic of Loneliness and Isolation. Among many other factors, the report highlights how screen-based technology negatively impacts social connections. Further, the growing political divide has spooked many of us to stay home and not engage with our neighbors. In response to these trends, we’re trying to help people get out and get together more. With neighbors. In our historic Meetinghouse.

Maker Sessions (5:30-6:30) are held prior to each café and require advance sign-up and typically a materials fee. All materials are provided and you go home with something you made.

Maker Cafes (6:30 to 8:30) are free although donations are accepted for the food, drinks, and for the musicians. The Maker Café is run entirely by volunteers. Please join us.

For questions or to volunteer, please contact Craig Freshley: Craig@Freshley.com.

Maker Session and Cafe, Thursday, January 23, 5:30 to 9:00 pm

ABOUT the Maker Cafe at Durham Friends Meeting

MAKER SESSION: Learn How to Make Prayer Flags with Nancy Marstaller, 5:30 – 7:30 pm on Thursday January 23, 2025

Advance sign up required. Email Craig@Freshley.com to reserve your spot.

For this session, $5-$10 to be collected on site.

Nancy will provide all materials and instructions. You will be able to take home prayer flags that you made yourself. The Prayer Flags Maker Session will go from 5:30pm until about 7:00pm when the Cafe starts.

CAFE: 7:00 – 9:00 pm on Thursday January 23, 2025

Hot drinks, snacks, and light supper available. All ages, genders, and beliefs welcome. No Charge, donations welcome

Please bring a project of your own to work on. Some knitting? Mending? Painting? Sculpting? Crafting? Carving? And if you don’t bring a project, that’s okay too.

Please don’t bring your phone or other screen-based devices. This is an offline place where we try to connect with what we’re doing and who we’re with.

Live music by The Peterson String Band!

Falmouth Quarterly Meeting, January 25, 2025, 9am

Falmouth Quarterly Meeting will gather on Saturday January 25th at Portland Friends Meeting (1837 Forest Ave., Portland Maine). Friends are invited to arrive for fellowship at 9:00 for a full day together.

When asked: “What do we most need to do to save the world?” Thich Nhat Hanh replied “What we most need to do is to hear within ourselves the sounds of the world crying.”

We invite you to come and share about the life and spirit in your meetings.  Our hope is that our entire time together is a time of worship, with laughter, business, connections and fellowship.  All are welcome.  Here’s the  zoom link  for those who would like to attend remotely.

The schedule for our time together is:

9:00 arrival, coffee, hot water, bagels and fellowship.

9:30 program – Sharing and exploring, both as individuals and meetings, what these times require. We hope to start by naming what we need, and what are we given.  And then move to considering the question: How we, in this time, can do justice, love mercy and walk humbly with Spirit?

11:45 A brief question about the Quarter’s archives. 

12:00 lunch & visiting. – There will be a pot of soup. Please bring whatever else you might need or would like to contribute.  

1:00 Afternoon Listening and Visioning Session on our yearly meeting’s annual gathering (sessions) Recent years have brought many changes, both internal and external, to the context and circumstances surrounding NEYM Annual Sessions. These include increasing costs, diminished capacity to pay on the part of many Friends and families, reduced and shifting patterns of attendance, increased demand for supportive services and capacities, reductions in volunteer availability, and growing awareness of the need to focus and prioritize limited attention and resources.

In light of all of these changes, the Yearly Meeting’s model of programming, logistics, services, and funding for the event of Annual Sessions is in need of review and reimagining. We will hold a facilitated discussion to inform any future plans.

Durham Friends Meeting Minutes, December 15, 2024

Durham Monthly Meeting of Friends met for the conduct of business on Sunday, December 15, 2024, with twelve people in attendance at the Meetinghouse and four by Zoom.

1.   Meeting Opening:

        Ingrid Chalufouropened the meeting with a moment of silence, followed by the introduction of guest Shirley Hager. Shirley joined the meeting to answer questions about a proposed Wabanaki Elder in Residence Program. There was a question about role of the University of Maine, as an institution, in support of the program. The response was that everyone has been verbally very supportive. Moreover, the institution will take no money for overhead costs. There is a Wabanaki Center on the U. Maine campus that would be the location of the Elder program. Will funding to support this come from the world beyond Quakerism? The plan is to start with Quaker Meeting support, and then expand outward. There has already been funding success from individuals outside the world of Quakers..

Discussion was followed by a reading from Active Hope: What. is Active Hope?

“The word hope has. two different meanings. The first involves hopefulness, where our preferred outcomes seem reasonably likely to happen. If we require this kind of hope before we commit ourselves to an action, our response gets blocked in areas where we don’t rate our chances high…. 

“The second meaning is about desire…. It is this kind of hope that starts our journey – knowing what we hope for and what we’d like, or love, to take place. It is what we do with this hope that really makes the difference. Passive hope is about waiting for external agencies to bring about what we desire. Active Hope is about becoming active participants in bringing about what we hope for.

“Active Hope is a practice. Like tai chi or gardening, it is something we do rather than have. It is a process we can apply to any situation….”

from Active Hope by Joanna Macy and Chris Johnstone

2.     Approval of Minutes of November 2024  – Ellen Bennett

                        Meeting approved the November minutes.

3.     Finance Committee — Nancy Marstaller

Last month’s proposal to move $3,600 from checking to the Sister Meeting Fund to help pay for our travelers to go to Cuba, and carry the maximum donation allowable, was reviewed.

                Meeting approved the transfer of funds.

The proposed 2025 budget was reviewed, noting changes from last month that included: putting $3,600 in Sister Meeting fund, correcting facility insurance and Quickbooks on line amounts, and removing the cost of binding meeting minutes that will most likely happen in 2027.

                Meeting approved the budget

4.     Woman’s Society —Dorothy Curtis

Two months ago, a request was brought forward to spend $500 to support the girls’ education fund in Kenya. The request was brought forward again.

                 Meeting approved the request.

        The Memorial Minute for Kitsie Hildebrand was read.

                        Meeting approved the minute, with gratitude.

5.     Trustees Report — Sarah Sprogell

First item brought forward concerns the piano in the Gathering/Community Room. There has been some interest shown in moving the piano to a local classroom. Discussion followed, sharing ideas about the history and potential use of the piano.

The recommendation was made to let this issue season and review it again in January.

                Meeting approved this recommendation.

Update on disbursement of Eileen Babcock bequest. The Meeting will now need an attorney familiar with probate court to work on this matter. Please see report.

6.     Ad Hoc Outreach Group Report – Doug Bennett

A summary of the first Makers event was shared. Twenty people enjoyed wreath-making and one-another’s company. There are plans for Maker Sessions in Jan., Feb., and Mar.  The group debriefed and will meet again before the January event. The next Maker’s Cafe will take place January 23rd.

7.     Peace and Social Concerns — Ingrid Chalufour

Please refer to the report. Clerk of the committee lifted up the overwhelming support from the Brunswick Schools’ Chief Academic Officer and Principal for bringing Wabanaki Studies to all 37 classrooms at the Kate Furbish School. This is the early childhood version of the “Peace Curriculum” described by Colman McCarthy:

“Give peace a chance, yes, but why not get serious and give it a place in the curriculum: peace courses in every school, every grade, every nation. Unless we teach our children peace, someone else will teach them violence.”

8.     Bob Eaton and Wendy Batson’s transfer request

                          Meeting accepted, with regret, the transfer to Brunswick Friends Meeting

9.     Extending Leslie Manning’s Meeting Care Coordinator work

Clerks recommend extending Leslie’s work as MCC through 2025. Two questions are important to drive this process: Do we want to continue the position of MCC? And if so, who should fill that role? It was proposed that Clerks bring the recommendation this year, to continue the position, and that the MCC oversight committee bring a recommendation to have Leslie continue in this role in 2025.

                The Meeting approved this process for this year.

Regarding process, there is nothing in the job description, currently, that indicates the position would be reviewed each year. M&C is asked to consider amending the job description to include regular review and bring it back to Meeting for approval.

10.   Other Business/ Clerk Schedule for 2025

Linda  Muller is stepping out as Clerk of the Nominating Committee. Best practice is to have at least three members make up the Nominating Committee. Members of this committee are proposed and approved by Monthly Meeting. 

M&C has continued discussion about setting aside a day for a spiritual retreat. Current proposed dates are Feb. 8/9. They will be continuing this conversation.

Note that Brown Lethem will ask to transfer his membership to Claremont Meeting.

There was a recent request from a member to share their individual joy/concern to the person next to them, rather than to entire Meeting. Another suggestion is to establish prayer partnerships and re-establishing a prayer box. M&C will consider these requests and bring recommendations.

In lieu of filling the role of Meeting Clerk for 2025, the Clerks’ group propose continuing rotating clerks every three months.

                Meeting approved this schedule. 

Respectfully submitted, Ellen Bennett, Recording Clerk

Attachments

“Proposal for a Wabanaki Elder-in-Residence at U Maine,” by Shirley Hager

Shirley Hager, of Winthrop Center Friends Meeting, brought the message to Durham Friends Meeting on December 15, 2024. She outlined the proposal now afoot for creating a Wabanaki Elder-in-Residence at the University of Maine. Initially, this would be a three-year pilot program, costing about $30,000 each of the three years.

The materials she distributed encouraging contributions from Quaker Meetings and individual Friends are below.

Agenda and Materials for December 15, 2024 Business Meeting

The agenda and materials for the December 15, 2024 Durham Friends Business Meeting can be found HERE.

Agenda – December 15, 2024, Durham Monthly Meeting of Friends

  1. Opportunity to ask Shirley Hager questions about the Wabanaki Elder in Residence Program

2. Approval of November Minutes

3. Finance Committee Report

4. Woman’s Society: Kitsie’s Memorial Minute and request for $500 for the Kenyan woman’s education program

5. Trustee’s report

6. Ad Hoc Outreach Group report

7. Peace & Social Concerns report

8. Bob and Wendy Eaton’s transfer request

9. Extending Leslie Manning’s work as Meeting Care Coordinator

Clerking for the next year and a suggested schedule

  • Nancy – January through March
  • Sarah – April through June
  • Tess or Renee – July and September
  • Ingrid – October through December

“Heart of Darkness,” by Shelley Randall

Message given at Durham Friends Meeting, December 8, 2024

Heart of Darkness

“Jesus said, “the seeker should not stop until he finds. When he does find, he will be disturbed. After having been disturbed, he will be astonished. Then he will reign over everything. (Gospel of St. Thomas.)

Today is December 8, just shy of three weeks before we hit the winter solstice and the light begins to return, slowly. So we’re in it. The deep dark days before the light returns. Whatever is the point for us human beings around the darkness? How do we make meaning of it for us? Lately we’ve been hearing about hygge, that practice by the people of the far northern climes to honor and even revel in the darkness. We hear about the bears going into hibernation, to rest and renew. In typical western fashion we put a “happy” spin on these days of darkness. I’m all for that. Because as it turns out, I happen to be one of those people that finds the darkness to be quite useful.

Roshi Joan Halifax, a Buddhist Teacher and Abbot, founder of the Upaya Zen Center in New Mexico wrote a book about and coined the term “The Fruitful Darkness”. This is how I choose to approach this time of year.

In the early 1990s Joan Halifax, as an anthropologist and grieving daughter and ex-partner/wife, traveled to Tibet, Mexico and the Western U.S. to experience indigenous sacred practices. She wanted to understand how indigenous cultures manage personal and world wounds through initiation, storytelling, non-duality and ceremony. Roshi Halifax found that the indigenous tribe, the Utes, understand that, “[t[he secret of life is in the shadows and not in the open sun; to see anything at all, you must look deeply into the shadow of a living thing.” (The Fruitful Darkness, p. 5)

Furthermore, she writes that though this process may be difficult there is an ending and a hopeful one at that, “[t]he process of initiation can be likened to a “sacred catastrophe,” a holy failure that actually extinguishes our alienation, our loneliness, and reveals our true nature, our love. That is why we seek initiation: to heal old wounds by reentering them in order to transform our suffering into compassion.” (TFD p. 15)

Dr. Gerald G. May wrote the ominously entitled book, The Dark Night of the Soul. It is an interpretation and application of the writings of Teresa of Avila and John of the Cross, two christian mystics living in Spain in the 16th century. Both mystics spoke andwrote extensively about what they name The darkness or The dark night or in SpanishLa noche oscura- the hidden night.

And what is my experience with the Fruitful Darkness, or the dark night of the soul? It is a varied and ineffable experience that once I pass through, becomes difficult to describe. Often I am pulled into this darkness kicking and screaming, hauling out all my attachments to keep at bay the inevitable. I cling to busyness; food; sleep; my various external identities; where I’ve been, who I’ve been with, what I’ve done. Desperate to feel connected and grounded as I begin the descent into the darkness and down the rabbit hole of the feeling of purposelessness and self doubt. Who am I and where do I belong? I wail. I’m not enough, a failure! I cry out. Prostrate on the floor, sobbing, “again God, really, AGAIN”?

I recognize the futility of the external attachments I hold onto as I swim in the vast ocean of confusion and uncertainty. The personal uncertainty becomes the global uncertainty and with that, the overwhelm. And I ask, “Where is God? I don’t feel God! Where is my connection that I so rely on to soothe and comfort me, to reassure me that I’m on the right path, that we/the world is on the right path. I cast about for the energies of Jesus, Mary Magdalene, ArchAngel Michael, Green Tara, my parents, my trees and rocks and animals in whom I find solace. And there is none.

In his book, Dr. May confirms my experience of disconnection when he writes, “[a] much more unsettling experience is the loss of the sense of God’s presence, which can often feel like being abandoned by God. But Dr. May views this place of disconnection as a necessary piece of the transformative process. Much like Roshi Halifax found in her research.

So here I am in the nothing, the emptiness. Silence. I feel alone in the desert of my own humanity, separate from God and from others. And there I stay, roiled in rage; shame; self-loathing; abject fear and loneliness. Images of past betrayals and wounds fill my body and my mind. And there I stay.

Dr. May posits that John of the Cross viewed these dark nights as a gift; That the night involves relinquishing attachments and takes us into territory we avoid and, in the process, transforms us.(TDKS p. 71.)

The goal of the transformation, Dr. May writes, the dawn after the night, consists of 3 precious gifts for the human soul. First, the soul’s deepest desire is satisfied. Freed from their attachments, individuals are able to be completely in love with God and to love their neighbors as themselves. This love involves one’s whole self: actions as well as feelings. Second, the delusion of separation from god and creation is expelled; slowly one consciously realizes and enjoys essential union that has always been present. Third, the freedom of love and realization of union leads to active participation in God. Here one not only recognizes one’s own beauty and precious nature, but also shares God’s love and compassion for others in real practical service in the world.

So back to where I am waiting in the darkness, in the shadows, waiting for the storm of the wounds and betrayals to pass. Waiting for… I’m not even sure what.

Until….until… what?

Until there is a spark of something else. A glimmer of light peaks through the veil of darkness. Perhaps a momentary warmth in my heart. And the warmth grows. I may experience a change in perspective around the story of the betrayal or the wound. I may remember that while I was gnashing my teeth and deep in self pity the little voice inside me sent me nuggets of insight that I know are truth, a glimmer of the truth of who I am, really, authentically. Dr. May again confirms this experience through Teresa of Avila. He says, she especially emphasizes that, “(o)ne sees one’s own true nature with increasing clarity. Each time we approach the dawn when…we begin to glimpse ourselves through God’s eyes, we recognize more of our inherent goodness and beauty. “I can find nothing with which to compare the great beauty of a soul,” Teresa says.” (id. p.100)

My body begins to relax; the sense of absolute uncertainty and self doubt slowly dissipates. My attitude slowly changes, perhaps the lack of certainty evolves into a sense of mystery or even wonder, and, maybe I can lean into those bits of wisdom and with some curiosity.

And as I reflect back on my experience in the darkness and more importantly what happens at the end of the tunnel of darkness, I realize I am left emptier, but not in the way of feeling like I’m all alone on a desert island. The emptiness more corresponds to a lightening of a burden, like I’ve shed something. My body feels more lithe and flexible, not so stiff and rigid. Have I really healed old wounds as Roshi Halifax suggests? Iknow I was pulled into those places, I felt I had no choice. And I looked at those wounds and betrayals and felt I was once again back in them. I cried and yelled and wrote about them.

It seems that the Apostle Thomas writes about the inevitability of these nights. “Jesus said: that which is hidden will be revealed to you. Nothing hidden will fail to be displayed. (Gospel of St. Thomas 2.)

And then I got to a place where I recognized that I am who I am, a flawed human being filled with petty jealousy, selfishness, resentment, just like every other human being on this planet. And I began to soften my feelings towards myself, the judgement slipping away leaving an expansiveness, a warmth in my heart. It feels good.

How does this happen? Some would characterize it as Alchemy, others would say it is God’s Grace and still others, a miracle. I subscribe to all of the above.

So what is this warming in my heart?

This is Love and according to Teresa and John, Love as it is realized in God. and that this alchemical process, this “authentic transformation leads us to desire.” The desire to love. For John and Teresa, “the essence of all human desire is for love.” (p. 73).

Dr. May writes, “The spiritual life for Teresa and John has nothing to do with getting closer to God.” It is instead a journey of consciousness. Union with God is realized as a result of Love.” “John says the soul arrives at perfect union with God through love. This deepening of love is the real purpose of the dark night of the soul. The dark night helps us become who we are created to be: lovers of God and one another.” (TDNS pp. 46-47).

And that has been my experience. Each time I move through these dark times the process sheds something, perhaps, that thick protection around my heart that I have been convinced helps me. But John writes that the darkness “becomes our guiding night”, and Dr. May extrapolates, The night is dark for our protection”. “Deep in the darkness, way beneath our senses, God is instilling “another better love”. (Id. pp. 72-73.) And furthermore, John asserts that, “[t]his dark night is an inflow of God into the soul.” (Id. 95). And this inflow is the “loving Wisdom of God.” (id. 96)

And having shed a little more of this armour around my heart, I can move into a place of loving myself more, of loving life and God, Great Spirit, Creator more; of loving the flame within me more, and that desire to love others more.

So with that flame of brightness and light in our soul, the warmth of love burning in our hearts, let us rejoice in the darkness, let it transform us and move us into greater wisdom and greater love.

“Awakening to Creator’s Love and Truth,” by Gail Melix/Greenwater

Message given at Durham Friends Meeting, December 1, 2024                                       

“Awakening to Creator’s Love and Truth: Transformation beyond the experience of historical trauma and cultural differences”

By Gail Melix/Greenwater, Sandwich Monthly Meeting, Sandwich, Massachusetts

Friends I woke up feeling sick this morning, but so wanted to share my message, so I’m here bedside. I love worshipping with you.

Wunee keesuq Neetop, Good day Friends. It’s wonderful to be back worshipping with you, thank you for the invite…. Nutus8ees, I am, Gail Melix also known as Greenwater. I belong to the Herring Pond Wampanoag Tribe of Patuxet, Ma., also known by the name Plymouth. I am a member of Sandwich Monthly Meeting located on Cape Cod.

I’d like to start with a thank you to my elders, Leslie Manning and Ken Jacobsen who are holding us and this space in prayer. Ken offered to bring this message for me if I could not make it, and I’m grateful for the offer. Thank you.

 In June of this year I was invited to Durham Friends Meeting and shared a message about what it is for me to be an Indigenous Quaker and to hold two faith communities. I shared with you that I need both, I need both to be whole.

I spoke to you about my deepening relationship with Jesus Christ, my excitement when I discovered the First Nations’ version of the New Testament, my despair over Quaker Indigenous Boarding Schools, and the false Christianity that came with colonization to Turtle Island. It felt like there was more to be said, a second part, to bring today, including the power of hope and gratitude. My words have come from a place of unfolding worship from the past week.

What does land mean to Indigenous people? Land means home.

What if the meaning of home is more than the house you live in and the land that you own?

What if home is the Mashpee River running with herring come spring, the circling of osprey, the color of the morning sky over Punkhorn Point, the lay of the land when winter unfolds, the returning of the peepers every spring, the many colors of green in the pines and grass, the scent of warm damp earth and moss under bare feet, the garden waiting for seeds, the wind on the path between Mashpee and Wakeby Ponds, the fire for tobacco offering and prayer.

What if all these things are home? What if the heart of your home is the community you love? What if this is the meaning of home-land?

 Traditional Indigenous spirituality is land-based. The beauty of God’s creation is the visible truth of God’s existence. The web of life on earth includes all living beings, who are our relatives We are connected and interdependent on one another for health and survival. When you realize you belong to a family of…. Life on earth, this is the beginning of right relationship with Nature.  My father would say, “You take care of the Land and the Land will take care of you.” Land is a living breathing spiritual entity central to traditional beliefs, practices, and ceremonies, including song and dance. Everything is sacred. Nature teaches us and heals us; she provides us with opportunities for joy and delight that we can experience through our five senses… Sometimes I wonder if our sixth sense is our God sense, our birthright knowing of who we belong to….

The Harmony Way, a teaching for humanity, has been passed down through generations of Indigenous people as part of the original instructions for how to live in peace. Peace within ourselves and with all of creation, all forms of life. Peace and harmony are partnered and create balance. Without peace there is no justice, and there is no justice without peace. The systems of oppression, injustice, corporate greed, and annihilation of the earth, committed by the sins of cultural genocide, slavery, and white supremacy must stop… When I get overwhelmed with despair from feeling the suffering of the world, I give these concerns and my prayers to God. The Lord sometimes weeps with me. Hope and gratitude balance me. I discern what is mine to do and pray that I stay teachable.

I want to share some ways that I experience and awaken to God’s Love:

When I place my hands on a tree I feel an exchange of energy, a back and forth greeting and response. There is a sense that we are comforting one another. Even as a child I had trouble keeping my hands off my favorite trees and why should I?  Is it a surprise that we should have favorite trees, the same way we are drawn to a closeness and fondness for certain aunts, uncles, and grandparents? 

I acknowledge and honor the relationship that I have with water during my walks by squatting on the bank of the Santuit River and submerging both hands in the water long enough to leave my scent in the river. I anoint my forehead with river water so to carry her scent. I am in the river and the river is in me. After all we are about 70 % water, of course we are related. Kinfolk. Some days I am given to singing or humming to the river.  A Soft singsong that has words or not, maybe humming, is pleasing to do, and appreciated by the object of my affection. If the songs have words, they always express gratitude and may even be the words thank you repeated over and over.  Wampanoags have appointed water keepers, always women, whose service it is to sing to the water.

My relationship with Nature is one of the things that sustains me. There’s a reawakening of my inner child, that wonder and delight of experiencing the natural world. I did not surrender the curiosity and joy of childhood. The delight of being alive in this way is still a part of me. There’s a sense that something is being made right in my world that has created a wider path to my heart.

I see the face of God everywhere on my woodland walks. Over time I’ve come to the path with a greater ability for deep listening, reverence, and joy. Nature has taught me these things. Peace is easier to come by. If we bear witness to both the beauty and the suffering of all our relations we might be led to action, to be a voice for those who have no voice. The survival of life on earth as we know it depends on the relationship that humans have with Mother Earth. We protect what we love. So I come to the path with this question: What will I fall in love with today?

Retired Episcopal bishop and Choctaw citizen Steven Charleston draws on his Native American experience to navigate collective crisis: 

My ancestors did not survive the Trail of Tears-because they were set apart from the rest of humanity. Their exodus was not a sign of their exclusivity, but rather their inclusivity. In their suffering, they embodied the finite and vulnerable condition of all humanity. They experienced what the whole tribe of the human beings has experienced at one time or another throughout history: the struggle of life, the pain of oppression, and the fear of the unknown. Their long walk was the walk of every person who has known what it means to be alone and afraid. But they walked with courage and dignity because they had the hope of the Spirit within them.… 

Hope makes room for love in the world. We can all share it, we can all believe in it, even if we are radically different in every other way. We no longer need to fear our differences because we have common ground. We can hope together—therefore, hope liberates us. It frees us from our fear of the other. It opens our eyes to see love all around us. It unites us and breaks our isolation. When we decide to embrace hope—when we choose to make that our goal and our message—we release a flow of energy that cannot be overcome. Hope is a light that darkness can never contain.

So much of our life involves relationship; the relationship we have with ourselves.. with God, with other human beings, and with Nature. Everything created is Sacred, including humans, and this is one Way that God shows his Love for us. 

When I think of my two faith communities, Indigenous and Quaker, I see the deep similarities and shared core values that far outweigh our differences.  Quaker testimonies and Indigenous values share common ground. From the soil of this common ground, I see a bountiful harvest for us, ripe with the promise of deep friendships, with the accompaniment of our Holy Ones, and the blessings of Creator.  

There is joy in doing the work and despair that cries out for it.

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(NRSV) Mark 12:30-31, The Two Great Commandments, Jesus said, 30 ” you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ 31 The second is this, ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.”